Thankful Thursday: February 17th

I don’t know if anybody else has made this a thing. I also don’t know if anybody else will do this with me. If not, it’s completely fine. It’s something I want to do every week. I’m going to think of at least one thing I’m thankful for for the week. I’ll try to do up to four a week, but at least one. I think this will be very therapeutic. We shall see in time.

Note: There may be some things that get repeated now and then. My intention is to talk about things I’m thankful for that week. So some things may pop up a few times. I’m not attempting to be redundant or repetitive. Just trying to be genuine.

  1. Discovery. I’ve discovered something that I want to do that I can start building on to build a future for myself. I’ve been so frustrated because I have so many things I wish I could do, but I didn’t have anything that I felt like I would be good enough to do.
  2. Having people who believe in me. Even when I don’t believe in myself. Sometimes it’s hard to really see that there are people there that are on your team rooting for you. Sometimes it’s easier to just believe that everybdy thinks the same as you do about yourself.
  3. Trusting my morals. Something happened that I just couldn’t stand by. I won’t get into the details because quite frankly it’s irrelevant to the point at this point. It really did bother me for quite a bit after it happened.
  4. Healing. My sister passed away on February 13th, 2006. I struggled for years after. The first two years, I went to parties and got drunk. I wanted nothing more than to just not be in the world. I didn’t want to feel the pain. I realized that I was heading on a dangerous path, so I quit drinking. I still couldn’t stand the thought of Valentine’s Day. It was a dark day to me. This year is the first year that it didn’t feel dark to me. I still miss her. I don’t think that will ever change. I’m just so thankful that I’m starting to heal. That I’m able to see the beauty in days that are meant to embrace love.

What are some things you’re thankful for?

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