I don’t know if anybody else has made this a thing. I also don’t know if anybody else will do this with me. If not, it’s completely fine. It’s something I want to do every week. I’m going to think of at least one thing I’m thankful for for the week. I’ll try to do up to four a week, but at least one. I think this will be very therapeutic. We shall see in time.
Note: There may be some things that get repeated now and then. My intention is to talk about things I’m thankful for that week. So some things may pop up a few times. I’m not attempting to be redundant or repetitive. Just trying to be genuine.
I put very serious consideration into skipping this week’s blog. My dog ran away from home and hasn’t been seen in days. At the time of me posting this, he’s been missing for six days. I was so overcome with hurt that I didn’t post blogs like I should. I couldn’t even bring myself to even look at my computer. I still wanted to post all of my normal blogs. Even if I’m posting them late. It’s important to me. The people who take time to read my blogs are important to me.
I want to stress the importance that even though I am finding it hard to find things to be thankful for right now doesn’t mean that I’m not thankful. Right now, I’m letting the heartbreak run its course. While being thankful for things is important, so is letting myself feel emotions that I don’t find particularly pleasant. While I’m thankful I’m alive and have the amazing people in my life that I do, I also recognize that it’s okay to be broken. It’s okay to be not okay.
I know there will be many people out there that probably scoff at me being so openly hurt by my dog running away. That’s okay. Everybody is entitled to their own opinion. I am not ashamed for how I feel. Shadow is going on four years old. We have had him in our family since he was nine weeks old. In my eyes, he is my baby. I don’t have human children, and to be honest, after this ordeal, I don’t think I ever will. The pain it’s just too much.
I’m thankful to live in a world where I have the freedom to speak my mind and show my emotions. I’m thankful for being able to connect with so many amazing people. I’m thankful to be alive. Right now though, I just want to be not okay. I want to obsessively hope that my baby will find his way home to me. Sorry this isn’t one of my happier posts, but it’s one of my most real ones. Blessed be my readers.
What are some things you’re thankful for?
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