Writing Prompt: Write a letter to your future self
You know it’s really funny. Growing up, they say that you have everything figured out by thirty. I was so excited to become an adult back then. I was so excited to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I thought I would have it all figured out. I was so wrong. I’m 34 years old and I don’t have a clue. Most days, I feel alone. I really hope you don’t have that feeling.
I have finally started healing. I had to open all the wounds and let them bleed out so they could heal properly. The healing is going to take awhile. I can feel it. It’s been really good for me though. It’s been nice to remove the scars. I have somebody in my life that encourages me every day to do so. To heal. To grow. To live. To love. She’s more amazing than she could ever know.
I really hope that she’s in our life when you’re reading this. I don’t care in what way as long as she’s in it. As long as she’s not an enemy we never speak to. She can be a friend, a lover. I don’t mind if we adopt each other in a family kind of way. I just know that I will never forget her. I’ll never forget her kindness and compassion.
I’ve been taking a lot of steps to better myself. I’ve also been trying to focus on a career that I want to do for the rest of my life. You would think that I would know what I want to do by now. The only thing I seem to know is that I don’t want to be around too many people. I want to get out of the retail type world. I’d love to be a writer and blogger as a full time career, but I just don’t see that in my cards.
Anyway, I’ve said all I want to say. I really sincerely hope that you’re happy. I hope that you have everything you want in life. I hope that you’ve made peace with who you are and the fact that that’s not going to be everybody’s cup of tea. You may lose some people. Don’t dwell on it. Focus on the gems that stay in your life no matter what. You are loved. You are kind. You are smart. You are independent. You are a ten. Don’t let anybody make you feel like you’re less.