Once classes started, I don’t know if it was my mood swings or if I was
depressed but I started feeling isolated and unmotivated. I went to work, I
went to class but while I was there physically, I wasn’t mentally or
emotionally present. I was empty inside. I felt like I was a bother to
everyone. If it wasn’t for Christopher and his disdain for the club scene, I’d
have been completely without company on weekend nights. Athena wouldn’t always
go either but she still had DeVon to attend to, one way or another. While the
rest of the house got drunk, and sloppy Christopher and I went out to dinner
and bonded. We became closer friends that semester and it was nice to have at
least one of the guys in the house who wasn’t into instigating or fanning the
flames of the drama in my life. Like with Monroe last semester, my closeness
with Christopher made Anthony suspicious and jealous, DeVon even speculated
that maybe Christopher wasn’t gay like we all thought, just to see how Anthony
It’s funny because Anthony
tries so hard to pretend he doesn’t care about Lyric when it’s obvious to
everyone except for him and Lyric that he has some real feelings for her. DeVon said in his commentary
couple of weeks with Anthony primping in the mirror everyday, telling himself
he was the “Freshest Nigga Alive” and telling me that I was lucky to have a fly
ass nigga like him in my life.” I was at my wits end. I took advantage of
Monroe’s man whorish ways and when he had “guests” over I’d sneak upstairs and
take his bed in the room with Christopher. Some nights I even preferred to
sleep on the couch than in the same room with Anthony. When Monroe was in his
bed, Athena and DeVon were in the boom boom room, I slept in Athena’s bed. One
night , a week before Valentine’s Day, I decided
that it was time to move Anthony out of my room. I was tired of climbing the
stairs to stay in Monroe’s bed at night. I was tired of hearing Anthony talk to
other girls on the phone and looking to see if I was reacting. He had already
went back on what he said about not wanting any benefits from our friendship.
He’d come home horny and sexually unsatisfied sometimes and, to him, my “No.”
or “Get off me.” “Move.” “Don’t touch me.” was the start of a negotiation not
an actual rejection. He thought if he kissed me it would convince me but I
would always move my face out the way. “You my baby mama, you can’t say no.” He
laughed. I wanted to move him into DeVon and Athena’s room, it would be a tight
fit but It could work.
“You’re not supposed to do any heavy lifting.”
Christopher reminded me as I flipped Anthony’s mattress over and started
dragging it across the floor
“Do you want your room back? And It won’t be
that heavy if you help me.” I told him “Ugh! Fine.” Christopher whined.
move the bed frame but the mattress and box spring were easy enough. I was nice
and made up the bed for him and neatly stacked his clothes next to the closet.
I had showered and changed into some pajamas, rubbed Cocoa Butter on my belly
to help keep the stretch marks away, and climbed into my nice warm bed. I had
just closed my eyes and began drifting to sleep when everyone piled in from the
club. I didn’t move to see what was going on, I just waited.
From what I could hear, DeVon was wasted and
Athena was trying to get him to calm
down. He was throwing a fit
and accusing her of flirting again and ranting about how dude was going
to catch a beat down if he ever saw him again.
“What the hell?!” DeVon exclaimed “Ant, why is
your s–t in my room?” I pulled the cover over my face trying not to laugh out
“What are you
talking about?” Anthony asked
“Lyric done moved you out of your room nigga.”
DeVon said “Why?”
girlfriend don’t like you.” Monroe said
“Girlfriend?” An unfamiliar woman’s voice asked.
“You have a girlfriend?” “She’s not my girlfriend.” Anthony defended
pregnant baby mama.” Christopher chimed in.
“Ay! Yo!” Anthony asked walking into my room. I
pretended to be sleep “Yo! Wake up!
“What?” I asked feigning annoyance at being
woken up “Why is my stuff in DeVon and Athena’s room?” “Because I don’t want
you in here.” I said
“I don’t want to
be in the room with them. They’re going to have sex.”
“Maybe you’ll learn something. Think of it as a
live porno. You like porno.” I laughed “No.” DeVon said bringing one of
Anthony’s bags back into my room. I got out of bed
and grabbed the bag and tossed it back out.
“Woah.” the girl
said taking me in “You’re super pregnant.” I surveyed the room.
Anthony was standing closest to me. Monroe and his latest girl, were
standing in the kitchen.
Anthony’s date, was standing in the kitchen next to Monroe’s girl. She
wasn’t really that cute.
She was kind
of plain in the face, but she looked like a size 5 so I’m sure Anthony thought
he was lucky right now.
right?” I laughed “Be careful with this one, he doesn’t like to use condoms. It
only lasts a couple minutes, anyway so I guess I can see why it would be a
waste of one.” I rubbed on my stomach “But, still, make sure he pulls out.”
“Wow. Umm I think
I’m gonna go.”
“No Don’t go.”
DeVon tossed more of Anthony’s stuff out and I
threw it back “He’s your pet monkey, you keep him.” I argued “No, he’s your
baby daddy, you keep him.”
“I’m gonna go.”
The girl said.
about the jacuzzi?” Anthony asked trying to pick his clothes up off the floor
“I’m good.” She said. She looked at her friend who looked like she didn’t want
to go. “Nah, don’t leave.” Monroe intervened “You can suck my d–k too. It’s
way bigger than
his.” Monroe’s girl looked at
Anthony’s girl as to suggest it. Anthony’s girl shrugged her shoulders. She was
Monroe asked shocked
“Sure.” she said
looking at him in a kind of hunger.
“Let’s go!” He said excited. He grabbed his girl
by the hand who then grabbed Anthony’s girl by the hand and they ran up the
stairs and slammed the door to the boom boom room
Anthony asked, mouth gaping open. There was a moment of shocked silence and
then everyone else started laughing. Anthony looked at me like a little kid
who’s balloon just flew away.
shouldn’t have brought her here.” I shrugged.